time to think

is there any remarkable things i've reached?

yah, it always appears when i thought about myself. remembering my achievements in last one year, i don't think they are remarkable. i tried to focus, i studied much, i kept trying to give my best. but, i got virtualy nothing. i mean, people lay hopes on me but what i did was disappointed them.

here, where i thought i'd start a new-and-great life, i couldn't earned something which can make me proud, (yet). so sad recognising that i'm the worst. people i know have already achieve many great things that i don't. feels like someone invicible hit me on the head.

well, when i told this to someone, he asked me, "is that all you're looking for?"

heem..

"life is not all about achievements you earn by those competitions. yah, you may fight for them cz you have a good will to do so. but remember, do everything you want, as far as it's in your limit. do not ever force yourself to be what you want. people have their own abilities, you do. you shouldn't think that you're the worst just because you achieve nothing (comparing with them). what you must do is how to face your good and bad results patiently.

if you ever think about it again, just see how much you did to give your best, how much your will has taken you this far. you'll know that you've been grown to be a better personality who can act better in your society. see how your friends see you, are you good or bad. that's another thing that you must pay attention to,"


it doesn't mean i should not keep trying to be a success students, i think, does it?
and it means that i must be more thankful to God that i can learn from my success and failures.